I never had a threesome. I haven’t had lots of things. I haven’t ever flown and SR-71 Blackbird. Tons of things are out there that I frankly haven’t, nor will I ever, do. It’s not because these things are unrealistic. People do have threesomes. People do become pilots, and some do fly the SR-71.
But…
I’ve done some things that may or may not occupy an adolescent fantasy. I have gone white water rafting. I’ve insanely jumped from an airplane on my one and only skydive. I nearly drowned in an underwater cave somewhere in the Everglades. I’ve pet a rattlesnake. Heck, I pooed my pants under the aurora borealis in bfe Alaska while starving. I probably could have left the bit about the poo out of my tale. I didn’t and won’t. We had come unaware upon a polar bear. Poo seemed the appropriate response. Don’t judge me til you’re there.
The things I haven’t done I don’t regret. The threesome that did not happen involved a young lady and her friend I barely knew. I went to high school with the young lady. She had dated a salutatorian, a wannabe fighter pilot, and would eventually go in to marry, and I assume eventually divorce, a valedictorian. All except the young lady’s female friend were people I’d become good friends with in high school and college.
A female on female erotic media video was playing. The ac was turned so cold we had to huddle beneath blankets. Alcohol was involved. I demurred, even though like many young adult males, it was definitely on ‘the list’ of things that I wished would happen but only happened in movies. I demurred because I wouldn’t have been able to look one or more friends in the eye afterwards. You don’t hurt friends or family even when vague fantasies are involved.
I lost my chance to become a pilot when I found out I had the slightest touch of color blindness.
I don’t regret those things. What if isn’t the way to live life.
I look to what I have done.
Eaten a stack of pancakes 15 inches high in under 90 seconds while unable to drink anything. I’ve helped apply a tourniquet and knew enough to loosen it to keep the limb alive. He kept his life and leg. I have kids and grandkids, biological and step. They’re all mine, DNA irrelevant.
Much of life is mundane. Much of what we do doesn’t matter. I choose to not think of it that way. I do what I do because to do otherwise is to be untrue to myself and others.
Like anyone else, I’m not a saint. Nor am I a devil. We all at points in our lives make mistakes. All of us make choices we rejoice about later as having chosen well.
I will take holding true to myself over a fantasy any day.
Now to see what happens when I attach this bare wire to the portion of the generator that says ‘do not under any circumstances touch’. I doubt anything bad will happen.
Peace.